You’re probably
familiar with the story in Luke 7:36-48 of Jesus at the Pharisee’s house with
the woman who came and wiped His feet with her hair and anointed them with
ointment. When the Pharisee looked
down on the woman for her demonstrative love and because she was a sinner,
Jesus told the parable of the two debtors, one owing five hundred pence and the
other owing fifty, which a creditor forgave. He asked the Pharisee which debtor would love the creditor
the most for that, and the answer was of course, “he, to whom he forgave the
most.”
Now we come to the
punchline that hit me different recently.
44 And he
[Jesus] turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I
entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath
washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head.
45 Thou
gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to
kiss my feet.
46 My
head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with
ointment.
47 Wherefore
I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much:
but to whom little is forgiven, the same
loveth little.
48 And he
said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven. (Luke 7:36-48, emphasis added)
Previously I thought Jesus was just saying that Simon (the
Pharisee) didn’t have very many sins to be forgiven of and that meant he didn’t
love Jesus as much.
But recently I realized that Jesus didn’t say anything about
how many sins Simon had; we just assume it was fewer because of the comparable
sizes of the debts in the parable.
Also, it doesn’t say anything about whether Jesus forgave Simon or not;
we just assume He did because of the parable.
I suspect that Simon had begun
to repent, but that he hadn’t finished yet. And because he was not finished, I think he still probably
viewed faith in Jesus to repentance as a sort of last-resort tool or something
to not be used very often. Because
he hadn’t used it much, he wasn’t as grateful as the woman, who had some
serious sins that had been forgiven her.
Now here’s a question you may have had about this parable,
even if only subconsciously. (I
know I had it myself.) We may
wonder, “If I haven’t committed huge sins, does that mean I am doomed to love
Jesus less?”
We don’t want to go the route of committing big sins just to
repent so we can love Jesus more. Sin
is still sin; it still alienates us from the Lord.
The solution is that we gain greater appreciation for
Christ’s atonement over time as we
use it in our lives.
When I was a teen, I knew about the atonement in theory, but
I still had this foolish idea that I could do things myself. Naturally, I didn’t appreciate the
atonement much. But as I
came to points where I had to experience it and use it, I came to appreciate it
more.
Now, as I look back over the sins and mistakes that I’ve
made and been forgiven of, as well as the weaknesses that I’ve asked for
enabling power to cope with, I have a much greater appreciation and gratitude
for it. (I also sense that my gratitude is much smaller than it
should be.) But I imagine that my
gratitude will only grow the more I use it in my life until the day I die when
I will testify it was the only way I made it.